Cure my Tragedy (A letter to God)

Remember all the times that we used to play
You were lost and I would save you
I dont think those feeling will ever fade
You born a part of me

Wont you cure my tragedy
Wont you cure my tragedy
Dont take her smile away from me
Shes broken and Im far away

Wont you cure my tragedy
Wont you cure my tragedy
Then I hope that you can hear me scream
Wont you cure my tragedy

When I sit and think of the days we shared
And the nights you covered before me
Every little thing that I ever did
You would stand by me
Everytime you would cry it would take my wind
My heart would break
If I could be strong like you were for me
You are my faith

Wont you cure my tragedy
Wont you cure my tragedy
Dont take her smile away from me
Shes broken and Im far away
If you made the world a stage for me
Then I hope that you could hear me scream
Can you hear me scream
Can you hear me scream

Wont you cure my tragedy
Wont you cure my tragedy
Dont take her smile away from me
Shes broken and Im far away
If you made the world a stage for me

I cant take this anymore
I cant take this anymore
Wont you take and give her pain to me
Cause my whole life Ive made mistakes

Sunday is Gloomy,
My hours are slumberless,
Dearest, the shadows I live with are numberless
Little white flowers will never awaken you

Not where the black coach of sorrow has taken you
Angels have no thought of ever returning you
Would they be angry if I thought of joining you
Gloomy Sunday

Sunday is gloomy
with shadows I spend it all
My heart and I have decided to end it all
Soon there’ll be flowers and prayers that are sad,
I know, let them not weep,
Let them know that I’m glad to go

Death is no dream,
For in death I’m caressing you
With the last breath of my soul I’ll be blessing you
Gloomy Sunday

Dreaming
I was only dreaming
I wake and I find you
Asleep in the deep of
My heart
Dear

Darling I hope that my dream never haunted you
My heart is telling you how much I wanted you
Gloomy Sunday

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…And no, I’m not suicidal. It’s just that…it is quite a gloomy today isn’t it?

I like all types of music. From classical, pop, country, j-pop, j-rock, alternative, hard rock, gothic, new wave, you name it, I can state a favorite or more. I love singing so much (but I think singing does not love me wahahaha!) that I had even purchased a whole bunch of song books!

I’ve had my share of pop-dance crazes: “Stars”, “Dying Inside” (hides), Ace of Base songs (”I wish I could scream out loudd…that I love you…I wish I could scream to you don’t gooooo…” from Don’t Walk Away), “My Boo”, Whigfield’s “Close to You”,Zoom; new-wave faves: “Bizaar Love Triangle”, “True”, “Upside Down”, “Everytime I See You”.

During my high school and half of my college years, I used to listen to almost everything (EXCEPT FOR APRIL BOY REGINO, THANK GOD!)…Metallica, Pearl Jam, 70’s and early 80’s love songs, jpop, jrock, pop, alternative, and of course, OPM bands. And yes, Boy-band lurrrvv! From a little Menudo(Ricky Martin’s old band) brat that I was, I eventually grew up to a Boyzone and Westlife lover. I remember how heartbroken I was in my 1st (or was it 2nd) year of college when Stephen Gately of Boyzone admitted he was gay…I liked him a lot and well, I felt like all the “decent guys” were just turning gay… My greatest crush back then (he was also a very close high school friend) also went out of his closet a few months before that and I was like…WAHHH!!! WHYYY WAS EVERYBODY JUST TURNING GAAYYYY???!!! Oh well, lots of people change when they go to college. I mean a lot of ‘em considered as high-school losers go and reinvent themselves and some, after their acne skin treatment, sever dieting during the summer vacations, and subjecting themselves to a complete fashion and personality make-over, really succeeded in doing so….then there are those kids who decide it’s time to err… “come out”…Well, it cannot be helped, especially in an “open to anything” environment such as UP. Anyway, the height of my Westlife madness was when I met hubby, since we both can relate to most of their songs…I got over ‘em boy bands but as you can see, I’m still very much into hubby…LoL!

Eventually, I listened more to alternative and alternative rock, emo, metal, hard rock, gothic rock. and jrock. Evanescence and Linkin Park were my favorite bands. Nothing much was happening then, I just finished college and I decided to take a break. I began my nocturnal existence (Ha!) and I spent my time playing Ragnarok Online, staying awake ’til 5am only to wake up at 4pm-5am the same day (except when I had to do some shopping and paperwork). I started wearing ‘em black clothes and never left the house without putting my black lipstick on.

Now that I’m married, I can’t go around wearing ‘em gothic outfits as often as I used to before. However, my choice of music had delved more into classical, gothic metal, symphonic metal, symphonic rock and a bit of dark pop too, mostly with female soprano and/or mermaid-like vocals. But then again, songs with hunting melodies had always fascinated me as early as when I was a child, and it all started when I heard “Falling”, the theme song of a very famous TV serial called Twin Peaks. Remember the song “Five Years” by Sugar Hiccup? I never get tired of listening to that song til now—freakiest lullabye I’ve ever heard…LOVE LOVE LOVE IT! Plus, I keep on discovering other similar songs, like “So Sad” by ‘em Gregorian Chant(ers) and Sister of OZ, and “Song of the Siren” by This Mortal Coil.

As for symphonic and gothic metal, I’m becoming more and more entranced by the “Beauty and the Beast” singing style of Tristania, Sirenia, of the songs from the earlier Theatre of Tragedy albums (whose lyrics were all of Early Modern English…kewlness!) and Leaves Eyes…All of their female vocalists have classical singing backgrounds (most of them are real sopranos), which I think is really amazing. Besides, the lyrics of their songs usually have this “theatrical”, “classic” feel, as if you are reading a fantasy novel.

What about you? Are you a music-lover too?